From My Heart


April 2011

Faith In Prayers

Have you ever wanted something so much, that you keep on working and praying hard for it with all your heart?

Have you ever wanted something so much, but nothing happens, but you keep trying anyway?

Have you ever thought of quitting, but then start working hard again because you reason to yourself that “the thing I wanted could just be around the corner”?

Well, I have.
It takes a lot of courage to put an effort.
And it takes a lot of faith to keep on praying.

But we just HAVE to pray, to ask from God, because without Him, where else in the world would we get the strength?
How do we push forward without Him?

Maybe He hasn’t granted our wishes is simply because it’s not time yet?
Maybe He’s telling us that we are definitely not ready for what we’re praying for.
Maybe we didn’t get what we want because we give up asking at the first place.

It does take a lot of faith to keep on asking, to keep on praying.
We shouldn’t give up praying, the same way we should not give up trying.

Written on 19th March 2011 @ 0201hrs


I may have written about this a few times before, but I’m going to write about it again anyway.


Some of my good friends are going through difficult times in their lives. It brought me back to my own past.


Well, when bad things happen, we’d wonder how we’d go through all that. Somehow we do. Even after everything has settled, we’d still wonder, how did we ever go through all that? How was it even possible?


As a Muslim, I do believe that things happen for a reason. A good reason. And I’m sure everyone else believes that too.


We believe that if God wants us to become a better person, a good person, He’ll let us go through some trials and tribulations.

If God loves us, He’s give more attention to us, and He does that by testing our strength and integrity.

By testing our faith.


It’s the same thing as exams.

If someone were to say he’s good at something, he’ll need to prove it.

If the examiner knows that it’s not worthwhile testing, he’ll stop after only a few questions.


I found out today, that past experience would teach us to help others.

To be there for our loved ones when they need us.


Those dark episodes in the past help us with understanding life better.

Look at life in a different perspective.

Help us listen more and makes us comprehend the importance of listening.


They teach us to count our blessings. Even during the darkest days.


I’m thankful that despite whatever that has happened, my life is still quite simple.

Not too complicated.


I thank God for helping me through all this, guiding me towards a better life.


I thank God that I have my parents, my brothers and my little sister.

My aunts and uncles and cousins.

My dear friends who loves me as I am.



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Menapak jalan yang menjauh

Tentukan arah yang ku mau

Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa yang membuat hati lara


Di dekat engkau aku tenang

Sendu matamu penuh tanya

Misteri hidup akankah menghilang dan bahagia dia akhir cerita…..?



Tegarkan hatiku

Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau

Naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi

Kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa


Aku junjung petuahmu

Cintai dia yg mencintaiku

Hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi

Bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia….?



Biar saja ada

Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi

Bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita

Cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan




Written on 7th March 2011 @ 2307hrs




Bila putus cinta dengan boyfriend

Mak ada

Bila keguguran

Mak ada

Bila putus kasih dengan suami

Mak ada

Bila sakit

Mak ada

Bila susah

Mak ada

Tapi kalau mak dah tak ada nanti….macam mana…?

Sebab tu kena lebih dekat dengan Allah daripada dengan mak

Sebab Allah akan sentiasa ada

Walaupun semua orang yang kita sayang sudah pergi

Semoga kita semua mendapat kekuatan daripada-Nya dalam mengharungi semua cabaran dalam kehidupan.

Written on 6th March 2011 @ 2301hrs


World Filled With Love Part 3: In Search of Inspiration

I don’t know why I just can’t focus tonight. I feel like I have ran out of motivation. Nothing could push me forward, and the only thing that I feel like doing tomorrow is to clear up my room, my desk, my kitchen, and sleep.


I do have a lot to do. But I don’t want to do anything.


So I’m in search for inspiration. I browsed through my nature photos. I listened to Maher Zain’s InsyaAllah repeatedly. I prayed. Now Anuar Zain’s Semua Untukmu is on my youtube. Then I remembered my time in Penang.




There’s a person who’s always pushing me to do my best, to be hardworking, to be responsible.

A person who’d say don’t worry about mistakes and don’t worry about what others would say but to follow my heart and do what’s need to be done at that point of time.

A person who told me to push forward no matter what.

A person who’s always have something good to say about someone.

Scolds another person just because he’s concerned. That person doesn’t have to be close to him.

A person who’s on my side when the worst happened.

He’d correct the other person when the other person is wrong. No matter who that person is.


Thinking of him, I feel obliged to work harder. He’s given too much.


And another person.

His motivational stories in between teaching and work issues.

Even when it’s late, when the sun has set and everyone’s gone home.

His energy, passion and determination.

His pride that he tried so hard to hide.

Pushing me forward with a way that’s so subtle and gentle I’d barely see it until long after.


Two very successful men.

They are not very rich, I know.

They lead a simple life, drive simple cars, wear simple clothes.

From the outside many may not think that they are successful.

But to those who see deeper than cash, they will be able to comprehend.


Enough to motivate me for the night.

We’ll see what tomorrow brings.


Thank you, Allah, for giving me the chance to be around these two great teachers.


Written on 6th March 2011 @ 0117hrs.


On Behalf of Mommy Dearest

I’m writing this to my Muslim male friends who are about to be married, are married, or no plans yet but will be married someday.

It’s not easy to make anyone understand where this is coming from, and maybe, as always, some might say this is more emotional than anything else.

But you have to know that emotions are part of a human being, and they are processed in the brain, ok…of course, the location is below the site where logical thinking is situated. But still, it’s part of us, men and women.

Back to the topic.

We all know when a lady marries a man, the man automatically becomes the centre of her life, after Allah SWT and Rasulullah SAW. She is to obey his words, fulfill his needs and wants, and make him happy.

The ego of a person who suddenly ‘owns’ another person’s life (and death) sometimes makes him forget that:
(1) he has to support her life at all aspects, including making her happy, treating her gently with love and respect, the way our beloved Prophet did, and
(2) she had a family before her life with him.

So I’m talking about point number two.

I’m not saying that this happens to everyone but it IS a know fact that it occurs in our everyday life.

A man who thinks that his wife doesn’t need to visit her own mother so often because she’s married to him.

A man who doesn’t like his wife asking him permission to meet with her mother and family members because she should make HIM a priority.

A man, and his mother, who’d query “why would she miss her family when WE are her family now, and we are treating her very well?”

A mother who doesn’t think her son’s mother-in-law is an important person too?

If you want to talk about logic…

Does it not make sense that a lady might just miss the person who loves her most, that is her mother? Even when she knows that her husband is central to her life now?

Does it not confirm to any logic that after about 25 years of being with her mother, she will ALWAYS be in her heart?

It is important for a lady to keep in touch with her mother – she’s the one who understands her the most, and if anything were to happen to the lady, to the marriage, it is HER MOTHER who’s going to be there for her!

Well, do you notice that when a lady is in labor, she’ll not be calling anyone else’s name but her own mother? Not her husband, not her mother-in-law, not her father, and sometimes not even God, but her mother.

Logically speaking, wouldn’t a man want to appreciate the person who’s made his beloved wife the way she is? Wouldn’t he want to admire the person who taught his wife cooking, and more importantly caring for a husband and his kids?

Wouldn’t it make a lady happy when she gets to meet up with her mother once in a while? A happy wife will make her husband happy, right?

How would YOU yourself feel, if your beloved sister gets married and you very rarely get to see her because her husband “owns” her life now? Wouldn’t YOUR mother be heartbroken?


Written on 26th February 2011 @ 2304hrs


For some reason I don’t feel at ease with myself lately.

My posts/comments recently have either been too preachy or too loud. Or angry.

People do say “practice what you preach”.
And obviously I need a lot of reminders…hmmm…

But then again I believe that sharing is caring – when one has a good thought or advice, it is nice to share it with others. It does not only remind others but it serves to teach one’s ownself about good deeds.
And I do believe that you get back what you give.

I used to be afraid of giving advice to other people because I don’t want to be the kind of person who doesn’t walk my talk.
Who am I to give out good advice when I’m not perfect myself?
I’m as bound to make mistakes as the next human being is.

But it’s nice to share good things, right?

Notice that there’s a lot of the word “I” used in this post.
I know the world is not all about ME but THIS post is about me. Heheh.

I just want to say sorry for any hurt/hard feelings anyone may have felt.
Any distaste everyone may have experienced.
I’m sorry if you’re taken aback by my “loudness”.

There are some things that would touch a sore spot in me.
There are times that I just want myself heard, and I’m sorry for shouting.

But I wouldn’t stop sharing nice things with you.


Written on 21st February 2011 @ 2338hrs

When We Ask For His Help

In simple language.
Whenever we say our prayers to ask for Allah’s help, any of these things will happen:
(1) Our wishes granted
(2) It becomes His Forgiveness to our past sins
(3) He will replace what we ask for with something even better
(4) He will protect us from misfortunes

But if we don’t say our prayers to ask Him for His help, what will happen?
Good things will still happen, but not as frequent as if we say it all the time.


Written on 16th February 2011 @ 2228hrs

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