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Maria-Syamsi

From My Heart

The Power of Now

Nothing is as powerful as the thoughts of death in changing our perceptions of life. Especially with a blink of the eyes.

Like when you’re feeling numb and you go to bed not knowing whether it will paralyse your breathing muscles the next morning, and you wake up breathing as normal you have always been. You know you need to do it now.

Do what, now?

To sit up and study and pass this exam now.

See those patients now because you might not see the same case again tomorrow, the next thing you know, you’re seeing patients like that as a specialist.

Call your mother now.

Go to the kitchen and clean up for her now.

Bring all those stuff to the gazebo and start preparing for the soup now.

Drive to the masjid now, because you feel like being with God and only with God.

Hug and kiss your sister now, while you could still see her smile.

Smile at that patient now, because you never know which one will be your last. Try to settle the issues now because you don’t want to leave your friends scratching their head tomorrow.

Now is not the time to be sarcastic towards those you’re unhappy with.

Now is not the time to hold grudges.

Now is perhaps the time you explain to them why you’re angry and tired all the time. Now is the time to understand that they might be angry and tired for a reason too.

We have struggles in life. We all do. Maybe if we start explaining in a loving and gentle manner, they might understand our struggles. Maybe they will even help us.

Now is the time to go wherever you wanted to go. Ask that thing you are curious about.

Now is the time to move, move and move.

There is so much to do.

Too little time.

No time for worrying, just put that aside. What’s meant to happen, is going to happen no matter what. Now is the time to make that effort.

Work hard. Play hard.

Smile.

Now.

Mahukah Kamu, Aku Tunjukkan?

Mahukah kamu, aku tunjukkan suatu tempat? 

Di sana ada 

Beratus juta pohon rendang

Tidak jemu mata memandang

Dari satu rimbunan ke satu rimbunan

Kita berjalan

Singgah menikmati buah-buahan

Yang enaknya cuma akan bertambah
Kaki melangkah 

Rumput hijau meliputi segenap permukaan

Tak pernah lelah kita dalam perjalanan

Marilah kamu aku tunjukkan

Taman-taman tempat bersuka ria

Teduhan yang redup lagi selesa

Tempat berehat, melayari masa

Juadah, minuman, semua tersedia

Senyuman di bibir

Terukir

Bahagia

Kerana sayang, aku kenalkan kamu

Suatu singgahsana mewah

Sungai-sungai mengalir di bawah

Tenang

Nyaman

Tiada luka di hati

Tiada dendam berapi

Yang ada itu hajat yang dipenuhi

Harapan yang pasti terjadi

Seperti yang dijanji

Ayuh kita simpankan

Syurga ketenangan di hati

Yang bermula seawal pagi

Saat mata yang lain tertutup lagi

Bangkitlah kita

Menarik nafas syukur, segar, aman

Memuji Pencipta alam semesta

Tunduk kepada kekuasaan-Nya

Memohon kepada keampunan-Nya

Meminta daripada kekayaan-Nya

Kekuatan-Nya

Hati akan tenang bagai di syurga

Hari mendatang terjanji bahagia

Segala pintu mudah terbuka

Jalan sukar dapat diduga

Kita bawa syurga itu 

Di atas dunia

Memancar senyuman kepada yang duka

Menghulur tangan kepada yang terluka

Memberi kata harapan penguat tenaga

Sejujur hati

Seikhlas jiwa

Mahukah kamu aku tunjukkan, suatu kehidupan?

Penuh ketenangan

Penuh pengharapan

Penuh keredhaan

The Greatest Blessings

When you decided to look around more closely, you will realise that this life is full of blessing. And if you look closely into yourselves, there are even more blessings that you may have not noticed before. Once you start noticing them, they will continue pouring until you find yourself living in peace and contentment.

Like when you could look past imperfections. Because nothing in this life is perfect anyway. Neither do they last.

Or the understanding that some things are written for you, that it will not go away no matter how you avoid it. Some, on the other hand, are just not meant for you, no matter how hard you tried. It does not mean we do not work for something. It means we work in a calm manner, work smarter to achieve our ambitions, at the same time not being too anxious about the outcome. We rejoice when we succeed, but will not be too frustrated when things don’t go our way.

It is such a blessing to be able to keep oneself humble when one achieves greatness after greatness. Knowing that the stakes are high, the efforts are exhausting, so many things could have gone wrong, and at the end of the day, success is gained. What could have protected us from the risks? How did we go through the hardship? Why did things go the right way for us, when countless others used the same strategies but failed?

* * *

I was certainly blessed that I could finally see the world in a new light. A light I did not notice to have dimmed inside me. A cloud has fogged my sight, I could not see beyond those near around me. The gloom made me tired, physically and emotionally.

In my quest to stay positive, to stay energetic, I did not notice myself being brought down by the anger around me, the imperfections, unrealistic expectations (from and on myself), negativity. I was blessed to have kept on fighting, to live in this world as though everything is beautiful, even when I was crumbling inside. All that is damaged, I picked up the pieces and put them back together again, one by one. Slowly, but surely.

I was gifted with persistence.

Have I achieved my dreams? No.

Have I gotten all that I wanted? No.

But what changed?

Because one night, something reassured me that there is Power beyond the galaxies. The Power to move the stars, the planets, the moon and the sun at their perfect distance, perfectly placed orbits, perfect timing.

The Power to move hearts.

The Power that will take into account ALL that we have worked for, everything we have gone through, the difficulties we have faced. 

The Power that tells us, love anyone. Love EVERYONE. He will love us back more than we can imagine.

The reassurance that everything will, and do fall into place. That we will just need to work for it, and He will fix the best for us. No matter what we wanted, what we worked for, what we prayed for, whatever He decided to give us is something within our capabilities to handle. Something that will make us most content.

The reassurance that love, indeed, is easy. It is pure, it is simple, it enlightens, it lights us up.

The knowledge that the world is vast. The people, the cultures, the way of life..you just need to choose, and you can choose just about anything.

As long as we have that pure love in our hearts.

As long as we try hard to reflect the light towards others.

I think we will all be fine.

Cinta Itu Seharusnya Mudah

Cinta itu seharusnya mudah

Bak sungai di pergunungan

Tenang

Lancar

Cinta itu seharusnya indah

Bagai bayu berpuput

Lembut

Dedaunan menari

Burung bernyanyi

Cinta itu lahir dari jiwa

Ikhlas

Aku sayangkan bunga

Aku sayang juga daunnya

Tanah tempat berpijaknya

Sang suria memancar tenaganya

Juga hujan penyegar warnanya

Kamu sayangkan gajah

Pasti juga sayangkan sungai tempat minumnya

Hutan tempat tidurnya

Padang tempat mainnya

Ibu yang melahirkannya

Cinta itu pastinya indah

Langit biru memayungi

Awan melitupi

Tiada soal lagi

Cinta itu mudah

Aku beri kamu senyuman

Kamu beri aku perlindungan

Andai mentari muncul setiap pagi

Sepasti itu juga si kembang mekar kembali

Cinta nan indah

Kamu tunjuk aku alam

Aku tunjuk kamu Tuhan

Cinta itu seharusnya mudah

Karena

Yang sukar itu

Namanya benci

The Melody

There are songs

When you listen

You feel like singing along

But you just could not do it

Because the music is too beautiful

 

You need to listen intently

To the melodious quiver of the violin

To every strike on the piano

To the deep emotions of the bases

The palpitation-inducing drums

 

You immerse yourself

In the harmony of them all

With the sweet voice like a clarinet

In the heart wrenching drama

That inspired the words

 

Deep in the orchestra

You sit still

Yet your mind

Wanders

Bawa Aku Pergi

Aku tahu benar aku bahagia

Tapi aku masih mahu pergi

Pergi jauh dari sini
Dari kota dan segala bentuknya

“Macetnya…polusinya…”

Pergi dari sini

Untuk menhirup udara nyaman

Pagi hari kedinginan

Melihat hutan kehijauan

Berbaring di pantai pasirnya putih

Belum tercemar

Masih terbiar

Bermandi di laut yang jernih

Berenang bersama ikan-ikan

Waktu siangnya diliputi awan

Melihat hujan

Membasahi alam

Tik tik tik

Tenang

Malam diterangi purnama

Tak terkejar dia sang suria

Sudah aturan alam

Masakan siang dapat dikejar malam

Bintang bintang berserakan

Entah berapa jauhnya

Tiada manusia bisa fikirkan

Bawa aku pergi

Ingin kulihat alam

Ingin kurasai Tuhan

Menikmati kekuasaan-Nya

Menyaksi bukti keindahan-Nya

Yang Esa

Bawa aku pergi

Dari sini

Alam

I watched this initially because of…erm….Nicholas Saputra.

That’s what I thought I would get. Mere entertainment.
However, later that evening, when I came down to earth, I was overcome by gratitude, that my heart felt what it has not felt for a very long time.

There I was, sitting on the floor, with only the sounds of the crickets outside the room, immersed in my imagination – I was lying on the grass, looking up at the leaves on top of the trees, breathing fresh, clean air.

Or looking at the stars strewn across the night sky.

My mind was then brought across the universe, through galaxies upon galaxies upon galaxies.

I was at awe.

We do not know what’s beyond all those.

Or do we?

My tears flowed.
Such magnificent order,

How could nature, how could the trees, the leaves, the grass, the earth, the stars, the moon and the sun, with their perfect distances from one another, exist without a plan?

How could there even a question about The Planner?

Such magnificent design could not have happened on its own. There is no flaw, no crack in the skies, is there?

Such impressive layout could not have occurred without a plan. Everything is a perfect fit.
My tears flowed with praise and gratitude.

Gratitude that I had a chance to know The Planner. Thankful that I could immerse myself with the nature’s wonder, and feel His Omnipotent presence. It is, indeed, the greatest gift one could ever obtain from The Giver of Gifts.

To look at the opulent skies just to understand that there is so much we have not discovered.

To have studied science just to be aware of its limitations, to grasp that science merely discovers the creation and the works of it. To learn that science has yet to answer endless questions, be it in health, physics, chemistry or astronomy.

To be humbled by the fact that human beings are limited.

To figure out that science, therefore, is limited.

And God is Almighty.

* * *

Indeed, religion is not simply rules upon rules. Living only upon rules would only  bring up rigid, judgmental people.

One needs to feel His presence, understand His Greatness, His Love, His Briliance, His Perfection. To look around, to study and reflect. Only by discovering our weakness, our flaws, our lack of knowledge, our limitations,that we could grasp there is One who’s beyond all that.

It amazed me that the words of Allah is, in its true form, spread with manners and good character. The good character then introduces its followers to understanding the universe, invites them to study the sun, the moon and the skies, to reflect upon their perfect orders. The manners that somehow encouraged them to explore oceans, rivers and forrests.

The connection seems unreal.

But it is as true as the sun and the moon.

* * *

I hope and pray that I will continue to rejoice in this emotions, to excel in these thoughts, until the time I meet with The Planner of this magnificent universe.
* * *

The link to the interview is as follows:

Nicholas Saputra and the environment

Food and Greed – Because Every Single Tree Matters

More than a year ago, the East Coast experienced a disaster – a big flood which was bigger than it usually was. And recently our country went through a bad haze, a man-made disaster. Both events had people blaming one particular activity as the reason for all this, that is deforestation to make way for oil palm plantations.

It made me wonder, why would palm oil industry be the sole blame, since people cut down trees in so many other places, for a multitude of reasons? To plant vegetables, and plants like soya, a lot of areas need to be sacrificed. People don’t plant cabbage under tropical forrest, do they?
So do people need homes to stay. Do they think the areas they are staying in now have always been barren lands? Are they aware that their housing estates were once forests, or plantation lands?
It all brought me to three of Prophet Muhammad (SAW)’s hadiths:
(1) Aishah RA said: “From the time they went to Madinah, the family of the Prophet (peace be upon him) never had their fill of wheat-based food for three continuous nights until he died.” 

*This means that they did eat their fill on many occasions, just never three days in a row. 
(2) The Prophet (peace be upon him) encouraged his people to be moderate in taking food. He said: “A person does not fill any vessel worse than his stomach. A few morsels to support him is enough for him. But if he is insisting on having more food, then he should allocate one third of his stomach for food, one third for drink, and one third for air.” [Musnad Ahmad and Sunan al-Tirmidhî] 
(3) Once the Prophet (peace be upon him) asked a person, who was performing Wudhu (cleaning up before prayers): “Why are you wasting water?” The person enquired: “Is there Israaf (waste) even in Wudhu?” The Prophet (peace be upon him) replied: “Yes indeed, (do not waste) even if you are at the bank of a river.” (Ibn Majah)
Let’s look at how the three concept relates to life as a whole; we could see that they prevent from greed, obesity and laziness, and saves the environment too. We should reflect deeper about these hadiths, they should make us stop and think before spending on something.
Hadith number (3) does not only apply on wudhu’. It is to be applied on many other areas in life – food, money, or other natural resources.
Just think about it.
Imagine that human beings eat 60% less than what we eat right now.

Imagine if all of us only eat to fill up a third of our stomachs for each meal.

Imagine if we only take small amount of water, petroleum, gas, trees and land to live our lives.
Wouldn’t we cut down less trees?

Is it not that less demand cause less supply?
Would anyone dare to open up more lands if they think they will not be able to sell more palm oil or vegetables?

Wouldn’t there be more cows, chicken and fish ALIVE now compared with if human beings consume with greed?
If human beings follow only these three habits and advice of Prophet Muhammad SAW, don’t you think the world would be more green? And that there would be less man-made disasters?
If there is less greed among human beings, would there be need for bigger houses, bigger cars, bigger kitchens, more money? 
If we all live in less than moderation, there is no need to cut down that many trees or slaughter that many animals.
But no.
We wanted big houses and big cars and many options for food. We thought we need to fill up our stomachs six times per day, and for many Asian, being hungry is like a sin. As a consequence, we need to make more money to buy more food. Food industry thrives and they will need fresh produce. Where do fresh produce come from?
Think. Just think.
We need less.

We could settle for less. 

Especially in an age where 15-20% of people are overweight, with diabetes, hypertension, heart and renal disease are increasing rampantly, man-made disasters occurring more frequently, we NEED to settle for less.
I know they say we need this much food and that much water to survive. But we know many people who thrived with less.
That’s the reason Allah SWT chose a human being as a messenger to guid mankind. Not an angel, not a special being. He is a human being who has needs for food and shelter like all of us.
He settled for less.
Can we do it for the sake of the environment?

Selamat Hari Jururawat

Doktor dan jururawat bagai isi dengan kuku. Tak boleh dipisahkan.

* * *
“Doktor, cepat-cepatlah pass exam. Buat baik-baik. Nanti lagi ramai doktor pakar.”

“Takpelah, doktor, saya ni umur dah 37 baru kahwin, sekarang ni mengandung. Tengok macam akak yang tu, umur macam ni baru dapat anak satu. Jodoh, rezeki semuanya Allah dah tetapkan. Biarlah orang nak kata apa.”

“Doktor, tadi patient ni tachy. Saya check gula dia 3, saya dah bagi D50% 30mL. Sekarang gula dah ok, tak tachy lagi,” kata jururawat itu pada tengah malam.

“Doktor, ni donut, tadi anak patient tu bagi kita,” kata nurse itu. “Eh, belum makan ke?” tanya kami. “Kami tunggu doktor..” jawab mereka.

“Doktor, jangan risau. Yang itu kami buat. Doktor yang baik memang kami akan tolong. Doktor tinggal je. Pergi buat kerja lain.”

* * *
Kata sepupu saya, “respect betul dengan nurse. Diorang boleh pegang, cuci orang yg diorang tak sayang pun. Hebat.”

Saya katakan padanya, “Mereka ada perasaan sayang pada pesakit, walaupun baru jumpa. Memang tak macam mak ayah sendiri, tapi perasaan sayang mereka tetap ada.”
* * *
Siapalah doktor tanpa jururawat?

“Nurses are very obedient,” kata Dt Mary Cardosa.

Hampir 10 tahun saya berkhidmat.
Jururawatlah yang melaksanakan arahan doktor. Membancuh dan memberi ubat-ubatan, IV drip, menghantat pesakit ke tempat prosedur. Kalau kawasan khas seperti ICU, unit rawatan jantung, mereka juga mempunyai ilmu yang tinggi, selalunya lebih tinggi daripada doktor yg menjejakkan kaki pada hari-hari pertama di ward tersebut.

Ditambah pula dengan perkara-perkara tambahan seperti menyuapkan makan, menukar lampin, memandikan pesakit. Walaupun itu semua adalah tanggungjawab anak-anak/ahli keluarga pesakit tersebut, mereka lakukan juga atas rasa kasih terhadap manusia lain, terutama yang tidak terjaga oleh anak-anak.

Malangnya di negara ini, jururawat dibebankan dengan banyak paperwork yg sepatutnya dilakukan oleh administrator atau kerani. Kalau di negara maju, tugas-tugas paperwork ini semuanya dilakukan oleh kerani/pegawai lain.

Tugas jururawat sepatutnya hanya berkaitan dengan pesakit. Kertas kerja yang patut ada hanyalah vital signs dan report. Hal2 barang dalam ward, harta hospital, katil, langsir, CSSD juga, saya harap ditangani oleh pegawai lain.

Bagi saya pula, jururawat bukan hanya di samping pesakit.

Merekalah peneman kami di kala waktu malam on call, yang kadangkala sunyi, selalunya sibuk.
Merekelah teman bercakap, senyum, bergurau, agar hari-hari yang dilalui tidak begitu menekan.
Merekalah tempat meminta nasihat. Pengalaman mereka luas, mereka telah bekerja dengan pelbagai doktor pakar, belajar juga dengan mereka. Walaupun pakar-pakar itu sudah tiada, nasihat mereka disimpan oleh jururawat ini.
Merekalah mata dan telinga doktor, mereka berada di hadapan pesakit hampir sepenuh masa, memerhatikan mereka, mendengar keluhan mereka.

Dan personally, bagi saya, mereka juga tempat meluahkan perasaan, berbincang hal kehidupan, sama-sama menaikkan semangat dalam menempuh dugaan hidup.

Saya berharap benar, masyarakat akan lebih melayan jururawat dengan hormat. Memang ada jururawat yang mulut kurang baik, tangan kurang pantas bekerja, tapi janganlah kerana seorang, yang lain dipandang hina.
Saya harap masyarakat tidak menghamburkan kata-kata kesat di hadapan mereka, mahupun di media sosial.
Orang yang sakit mungkin lebih cepat marah, tetapi kami nampak, orang yang memang berbudi bahasa orangnya tetap akan menjaga akhlaknya walaupun dalam keadaan sakit.
Saya harap suami/isteri jururawat dapat memahami beban kerja mereka. Bukan mudah berhadapan dengan kerenah manusia.

Maafkan kami, para doktor yang kadangkala termarah, terbebel, dan macam-macam lagi.
Mari kita sama-sama tingkatkan kualiti kerja, tingkatkan kasih sayang sesama manusia.

Selamat hari jururawat.

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